I was in a deep blue funk yesterday - the likes of which I haven't seen in years, honestly! But, I had a GREAT night's sleep (the first in awhile) and am feeling 100% better today. When trying to figure out what exactly caused the day to be funky yesterday, I came to a realization. There has been a long-term situation in my life that has caused stress and difficulty for me emotionally and physically. I think I have been counting on that situation to magically disappear this year. And it hasn't. And it's reared its ugly little head again recently in a big way.
A good friend gave me the name for it - hope deferred. I've lived so long with the absolute certainty that this stress in my life would be absolutely gone by now, and when I recently realized that it hadn't gone away, I fell off the cliff I've been hanging onto for all of these years. Luckily, my divine hubby and my dear friend caught me, but I fell a long way down before they did!
Anyway, it's funny how you can be in a deep blue funk (one of my favorite Garfield sayings from WAAAAAY back) and simply not know how you got there! Honestly, I spent yesterday wondering if somebody kicked my dog and burned down my house and I simply forgot to notice! But, today is starting off much better, and Chase and I have some fun things planned, so it's going to be a good day. Thanks for reading my daily whine and for caring about your constantly relocating girl! I wish all of you, my friends and family, a good day today too!